Friends And Enemies

Yet another late night blog... here it goes. So why do people feel the need to try and drag other people down all the time??? I mean, why is it that just because you are SO unhappy with your life that you have to try and make other people unhappy, too? I am just curious, ya know because it seems to me that misery really shouldn't be allowed to have any company. Misery should either be all alone sulking in a corner, NOT getting the attention it wants or at least only allowed to be around other miserable people. Leave the people who want to be happy alone! Shit!

I am talking about those kind of people who when you are really sad about something or are having a bad day and they ask you to tell them about it and then instead of consoling you or telling you things will be ok like a normal person would they instead try to "one-up" you by telling you about their horrible day or telling you about something tragic that happened to them. "Okay, well, guess I have no reason at all to be upset. My life is a bowl of cherries compared to yours. Now let's talk about you!" Right??? Or they always have these tragic stories to tell or these off the wall things that are or have happened to them and they want sympathy but you have already given them so much so the next time they walk up to you and say something like, "I need to talk... my dog got ran over and died today..." and you know they probably don't even have a dog your like "Oh, that really sucks, well, gotta run... "

Why, oh why, do people enjoy being unhappy, miserable, sad, pissed off, angry...etc. Why do they like arguing? What REALLY gets me is that there will be these certain things that they bitch about constantly, right? Let's take, oh... a specific item for example... Well, they are mad cause they can't have it. But every single time they have the opportunity to take this item like money, a career, a relationship, etc., and they have to work for it, they either won't work for it, they will somehow sabotage it on their own, and then continue to whine and complain about what they want and don't have even though they have had numerous opportunities to achieve what they SAY they want. It's like they would just rather bitch. WHY?

And why lie, really... about every thing that comes out of your mouth? For sympathy? For attention? For people to like you? Now I don't trust you, like you nor do I want anything to do with you. If you can't trust someone then what's the point? What's really funny is when the person who is bold face lying to you is making this SAME statement all the time like he or she is the pillar of trustworthiness. Yeah. You should be proud of who you are and what you stand for. I would have more respect for a homeless person who was honest about himself than a rich man who was so caught up in a web of lies that he didn't even know who he was any more.

It really is weird, friends, and I just don't understand. I just don't appreciate people trying to drain me of my positive energy. The energy I have is spread very thin but it's there and boosted because I choose it to be! I love my life, my family, being a mother of my gorgeous son, my great friends, school is great but hard work, work is long hours but a must do, but I do all these things with a smile on my face cause it's my life and I am proud and happy to be living it! It makes me sad when I have to cut someone or some people out of my life because they just aren't going to every be anything good to me and they will only continue to break my heart. I just don't deserve that...

I know there really isn't an answer to why these people are the way they are. I don't expect one. There will always be people like this and it sucks for good people like us. If my daddy were still here he would say, "Darlin, it doesn't matter what anyone else does to you, it's your reaction that shows who you are and what you've gone through, doesn't define who you are." He was really smart and I think that made a lot of sense. So, my reaction is, yes... it bothers me that there are people in this world who want nothing more than for me to be sad and angry... it would be weird for me not to care at all. I really hope that one day they realize that life isn't about that and they need to change. On the other hand, I still love my life, I am still so happy with my life and I am going to continue on about my business like before... Things like this just help me to really appreciate my true friends even more. I do love you guys. I know this is just life and another lesson learned.